This forgiveness prayer is a return to your Essence, an effortless dissolving of the positionalities arising in the unfolding stories of your life, allowing you to instantly experience who you truly are—Unconditional Love and Grace, Essence.
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Have you ever had a sleepless night and wished the stories would simply stop so you could go to sleep?
A couple nights ago... I lay down at 5:30 and lay awake going through round after round of being guided by my Soul through a thread of stories that went deep into my past, all the way back to my childhood in India. Hours and hours passed, and when I looked at the time it was midnight, and still.. I was bright awake and Soul had much more to unpack.
I had briefly experienced a miss-perception of an experience earlier in the day that then launched me into layer after layer of self-referential stories and forgiving the positionalities that were coming up.
Instead of resisting and trying to shut off the stream of stories, I surrendered, and began to forgive the positionalities that were illuminated one by one.
I only slept a couple hours, and even these were filled with lucid dreams so real I was exhausted when I woke up to begin my day.
Soul was on a mission, I could feel it.
So instead of resisting and trying to sleep, I kept going.
I laughed, had tears flow, and felt deeply each story as if it had just happened.
With each forgiveness I felt an elation, and Soul used this elated frequency to focus me on another story in my life. He gave me breaks from the deep tough stuff and took me through stories that showed me another side to stories of my childhood and decades that followed. At other times, Soul guided me to the full comprehension that I had mis-perceived literally everything in my life, and said:
"Lars, you have been living out a life filled with assumptions. This assumptive reality has captured your mind and all the unfolding stories of every aspect of your life."
Woah, what a thing.
This was no casual reflection.
Soul wasn’t showing me memories for nostalgic review—he was guiding me to dissolve the architecture that built them.
That's all stories are, a guide to the positionalities yet to be forgiven.
The memories weren’t just wrong; they were constructed from a view too small to carry their meaning. Just a pixel in the tapestry of Soul’s awareness. Like Essence said:
"Lars, your view is the pixel. Mine is the entire tapestry on wall of life's grand adventure."
Each forgiveness was a full deletion of the positionality experiencing the story—not just the surface storyline, but the blueprint, belief, and point of awareness it lived from.
After each forgiveness of the positionalities that experienced those stories, Soul pointed out:
"Lars, it's never been about you, and it never is. Everything you experience in your externally referenced reality is a miss-direct away from who you are as Essence. Your stories mixed with the stories and ocean of positionalities of your parents, brother, friends and everyone you saw, interacted with, and learned from. This soup of miss-perceived stories formed your personas and personalities, and new biases that you lived out to confirm through your assumptive reality. So you see Lars, it's never been about you. It's been about living out false stories of who you thought you were, and all of this formed the deep programming we are washing out tonight."
This wasn’t an insight—it was a cellular reorganization.
I could feel it rewriting the signature of my nervous system.
With each surrendered story, a whole field of thought forms, frequencies, needs, expectations and emotional blueprints dissolved.
Like Essence has shown me before, the purity of forgiveness is proportionate to the purity of surrender. And it begins always the same: Surrender. Go to nothing nobody. Expand. Then forgive.
As the night drew on, I started to come to a realization Soul was guiding me through three distinct steps in each story and forgiveness.
Step One: Surrender and Forgive
I would surrender and forgive, which erased the positionalities and all of their points of awareness—pixel memories that were keeping me locked in the prison of the mind. This also included the positionalities' beliefs, blueprints, programming, frequencies, vibrations, needs, expectations, desires and thought-form addictions. Not healing. Not reprocessing. Total deletion—by my Essence.
This is the "nothing nobody" moment. Not a concept, not an affirmation. A command. A collapse of the actor in the story.
Step Two: Stillness and Assumptions Revealed
Second, I would relax and simply be still, completely still. I couldn't feel my body—it was a lucid, floating-type sensation. In this state, I came to see all the assumptions that had formed that story. I wasn’t just reviewing life—I was stepping out of the scaffolding that held it in place. Assumptions dissolved like static cleared from a signal.
This is what Essence calls expanded points of awareness. From that zero state, assumptions no longer hold weight. And what I experienced was pure comprehension. Not mental. Not understood. Deeply felt in every cell of my body.
Step Three: Comprehension and Liberation
Third, Soul pointed out:
"It's never been about you, Lars."
Indeed... I responded, "It's never about me."
That phrase wasn’t an idea—it became a spaciousness. It was the moment the lens cracked open, and a whole new range of perceptual awareness came online. Not understanding. Comprehension. The kind that belongs only to Essence.
This is the pure detachment from story—a freedom from the spell-casting of narrative identity.
Sometimes I felt so elated coming out of a low-vibe story that I had a gorgeous buoyancy, like floating out of my body.
Not in imagination—in actual frequency.
Other times I had grace-filled moments when Soul showed me alternative stories, actions and outcomes in those life scenarios. Had I not been living from the prison of the mind—the assumptive biases and programming—I saw and felt what the others were experiencing, especially my parents and brother.
My Mom had no friends to relate to, just my Dad and two unruly boys who were on the adventure of their lives. She was tired from caring for the tribals’ medical needs, nourishment, and helping my Dad with his linguistic work. She was alone, afraid, and most of all deeply sad. My empathic nature picked up on that and I would be funny to make her laugh, and I would listen every day after school to her stories. I had forgotten all of these moments, and came to a deep washing of all my childhood perceptions and the vague memories that ruled my adult life.
I came to a deep awareness that I have blamed, judged, compared, held anger, and even deeply held fears that were all from a miss-perceived past. I had formed my entire spiritual path out of this ocean of miss-directs, and further deepened these judgments, comparisons and even pride.
This is all mis-labeled as ego—one word that tries to encompass all of this. It's most definitely not this thing called ego. It's all one story being woven into the next, from positionalities of the past writing the script that we unpack every day.
And now? The story is being rewritten. One forgiveness at a time.
Stories Are Either Miss-directs or Pointers To Dissolve the Prison of the Mind
What I’ve come to realize is that the stories we tell ourselves are not problems to fix, nor truths to uncover—they’re pointers.
Misdirects, yes.
But in the hands of Soul and Essence, they become sacred lighthouses. Not leading to who we are, but to what we are not.
Every time I follow a story from within a positionality, it leads me deeper into illusion.
But when I follow it from surrender—when I drop into the nothing nobody space—each story becomes a map to the assumptions and inherited programming still shaping my perception.
This is the power of Essence-level forgiveness. Not forgiving the person. Not forgiving the action. Forgiving the positionality that experienced it. The pixel.
Because the pixel is always telling a story from its tiny sliver of awareness. And we believe it. We defend it. We repeat it. Until Soul says, "Now watch what happens when you erase the storyteller."
And suddenly, the emotional charge vanishes. The looping thoughts dissolve. And the architecture of that pattern—gone.
These aren’t just old memories. These are frequency blueprints. Programming constructs. Entire identity clusters built from assumptions we never questioned.
"You are living from assumptions, Lars. And assumptions do not belong to Essence."
What I thought was insight was just layered interpretation. What I thought was understanding was positionality polishing its lens.
But comprehension—that arrives only when the positionality is erased through forgiveness.
Essence has reminded me often, “Lars understanding is of the positionality. Comprehension is of Essence.”
And when comprehension arrives, you don’t need the story anymore. You don’t even want it. Because it was never yours.
The stories we cling to are the very things we’ve been begging to be freed from.
This is what it means to go beyond the spellcasting of stories. Beyond meaning-making. Beyond caring. Beyond your narrative identity.
And it is grace.
And this is my wish for you.
Forgiveness With Soul Meditation
Over the last 9 months here in my tiny home, living in solitary, I was brought through all of the layers that I have described in this podcast and article, over and over and over… thousands of times now. Each layer revealed beyond the distortion of the filter of a positionality, what was revealed on the other side of all my definitions was spectacular. The true miracle occurs in surrender prior to beginning the forgiveness.
In this audio, I take you through the surrender to Soul, which may seem a dramatic shift away from surrendering to God, has been a spectacular experience. What I have experienced is that it is the last positionality that surrenders it’s definitions and identity to my Soul that allows for an ancient wisdom to be fully embodied and activated in this forgiveness process. Soul directly interfaces with this realm, and has been guiding every moment of your life. Soul can reveal direct information beyond your positionalities that can only be revealed beyond the miracle of Grace in action, which is forgiveness in the beyond nothing-nobody state of expansion into Soul and Essence. This is a vastly different frequency range than trying to forgive from the limited defined perspective of the positionality.
This audio is also available on Soundcloud here.
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