Have you ever been ‘weighed down’ by a story in your mind that seems like it’s on auto replay?
We’re all really good story tellers right?!
And we’re incredibly good at refining stories to fit our needs, expectations, desires and addictions. A miss-spoken word, the wrong look someone gives you, or any number of lower vi bratory life scenarios that evoke judgement, comparison, righteousness, pride, anger, fear, resentment, and even guilt… generate all sorts of stories in our minds.
In our unfolding life stories, we certainly stack a whole pile of additional stories in our own minds. By the end of this riff, you’ll see why, instead of being a distraction, your mind stories are your greatest spiritual gift.
To get to that new point of awareness, I’m going to unpack how I got to this spectacular new way of using my mind stories as a magnificent tool for transcendence, which is the delicious experience of raising your states of being from one level of frequency to a higher one. And here’s a huge hint… transcendence is the secret to experiencing grace on a regular basis!
So let’s unpack how I got to this awareness.
Over decades I refined my approach to my mind stories by cutting off any negative tale I was telling myself with a string of carefully crafted affirmations and actions that served as very effective elevating distractions. I had a whole list of things I would do to activate a higher frequency state… deep breathing, exercising, dancing, listening to music, watching a funny video, going through my gratitude list… and on and on.
However, as you will see by the end of this, none of these dealt with the positionalities telling the stories and experiencing their outcomes. They were all left fully in tact.
22 years ago I heard a saying, “where attention goes, energy flows.”
The moment I heard this, I was totally captivated with the simplicity of focusing on where my attention was going. So much so, that it became my obsession for decades to follow.
This is where mind stories enters the picture, simply because they go on all the time! Clearly this is an area of attention that were unpacking life dynamics that I sincerely didn’t want.
This meant I became obsessed with my stories!
Maybe like you, I heard that we are not only the script writer of our lives, we are actually the directors. This is spirituality 101!
I started to listen to 100’s of audio books, go to conferences, attend webinars and masterclasses, and hired life coaches, did hours and hours tapping, meditation and all sorts of spiritual practices … all to learn how to be the ultimate director of my life.
That was intense! However no matter how much I focused on my stories, there were pernicious ones that just kept on showing up on a regular basis, sometimes daily!
I found that when there was a story that was particularly intense or persistent, it took a lot of repetition and effort to shift my attention into a new story that would elevate my vibration and frequency.
I simply didn’t want my attention to generate frequencies that would attract people, places, times, things and events that would match the frequencies of my stories.
Now, in saying all of this, it may sound like I was experiencing non stop negativity internally.
This wasn’t the case though. I could say that most of my stories and views of life are and always have been upbeat and happy. I’ve always been a happy person.
However this just amplified the stark difference between my natural state of being, and the mind stories that were unpacking all sorts of negative emotions that would come up from life’s dynamics, movies, news, and many other externally referenced realities.
So at the core, the most obvious approach for shifting my thoughts, and thereby my attention and frequency, was the strategy of distraction.
Like I said earlier, I would dive deeper into my work, put on some music, exercise, say affirmations, and even focus on a lengthy gratitude list.
So an interesting outcome started to happen with all my distraction strategies.
Over the years these became refined to the extent that I felt at times that they became an escape from the cacophony of stories that sometimes jostled for my attention.
This is where positionalities were formed that ‘dealt with’ the positionalities telling the stories. So hilarious! These ‘distraction positionalities’ built up their own conscious and unconscious needs, expectations, desires and addictions. I literally replaced one positionality with another. I have heard some teachers call this a spiritual bypass. Well, I was bypassing almost daily, but creating yet another positionality that I needed to bypass from.
Then! There was a pernicious new positionality that formed, the spiritually righteous version that judged myself for any type of negative stories I was thinking.
I found that I would judge myself every day for having negative thoughts like worry, fear, frustration, anger, resentment, and pride. Imagine that! Here I was doing my best to be the ultimate director of my life, and it felt to me that my ‘negative’ stories weren’t what a spiritual person should be thinking. When I finally would climb out of a lower vibratory state, I would look back at my experiences and judge who I was, wondering why I couldn’t simply stop with all this story telling!
After decades of this distraction approach, I came across a detachment prayer that worked like a charm. I added it on top of my affirmations and gratitude practice with a simple method of disconnecting the energy chords with whatever or whoever I was thinking about. These days, I see that detachment was my ultimate escape route out of my mind stories.
However, again, the positionalities were never deleted.
They were all fully in tact after each detachment prayer. I learned another spiritual bypass technology! lol
So, after three years of non stop detachment practice, it felt like my story teller mind was winning the battle for my attention.
At the start of 2021, I was deep into doing psilocybin journeys every Sunday, which I had started a year prior. By this point I had had spectacular experiences of being guided by my Soul, who took me on journeys through dimensional realities, realms, and all sorts of spectacular discoveries.
On one particular Sunday morning, after taking me to a unspeakably gorgeous realm, my soul brought me back and proceeded to instruct me to begin practicing ‘I am nothing, I am nobody’ in all of my life scenarios. He instructed me for the next eight hours that this declaration wasn’t a denigration, rather this was a command line for erasing all definitions and avatars in the moment.
As I began to fully comprehend what it meant to have no definitions and no avatars in any situation, I started to feel for the first time my true authentic self beginning to emerge.
I didn’t realize how many definitions I had for all of life’s unfolding stories!
As the days, weeks and months unfolded with this new nothing-nobody practice, I found that all of the versions of myself in all my relationships, how I defined myself with my work and life path, my birth charts, my astrology… all this ‘getting to know myself’ was actually washing away!
This lead to a very interesting frequency experience that began to happen in my nothing-nobody practice.
Every time I went into this zero defined state, my moods would instantly elevate! This was so counter intuitive for me. I had for decades put a lot of effort into shifting my vibration and frequencies to higher levels.
This new nothing-nobody path was a dream! I became enamoured with not defining myself in any life situation. This zero state felt so good! It was such a relief to not have a definition to live up to.
And.. an unexpected side affect began to happen.
Every time I would go into nothing-nobody, my stories vanished! It was is if my mind didn’t have a script to go by… there were no needs, expectations, desires and addictions in that moment. There were no definitions to even create the script of a story! This was the anti-director experience.
20 years of trying to be the ultimate director of my life transformed into a totally new experience of washing out all of the stories!
What a thing!
After practicing meditation for decades and always struggling to get to a zero mind state, I was finding that practicing going into a zero defined state was building it’s own natural momentum.
More and more, as life unfolded in 2021, I began to see deeper and deeper into my own nature.
And it was in this dissolving of my self definitions that I finally broke through the vale of my own making to be able to connect with my higher self, my Essence.
This was where I first started to truly feel what Grace was like.
Grace is filled with wisdom and gorgeous comprehension of life’s unfolding stories. As these dissolved in the nothing-nobody state, I began to see the many facets of my personality, all from within the beautifully non-judgemental state of Grace.
However, even with all of this nothing-nobody practice, my positionalities were still all fully in tact!
At the end of 2022, I was deeply immersed in my connection with my Essence, when a dramatic shift occurred for me.
On December 31st, I was lying in bed in tremendous pain in my lungs and chest. My symptoms were correlating with protein shedding. If you’re in the truther community, you’ll know what this means.
I was coughing up blood and chunks of phlegm from my lungs. It was so bad, that I had sheets of paper towels next to the bed, so I could get on all fours and cough, simply because any other position was too painful.
I was taking all sorts of supplements and getting the rest I needed, but the coughing and infection was getting worse by the day.
Believe me, when you see blood coming out of your lungs, that’s a pretty serious situation. It forced me to face what could be the end of my life.
As I lay there in my bed, trying not to cough, I was having a continuous conversation with my Essence. As he was unpacking my nothing-nobody experiences, he introduced me to the Essence forgiveness prayer. He explained, “Lars, if you don’t start to forgive, you will die. I will guide you in forgiving from your Essence level. This will be filled with your Essence power and delete the energies and frequencies to liberate your whole being into a higher frequency.”
And so it began, Essence guided me through the first forgiveness prayer that instantly started to make me feel better. I kept going all night, and by the next morning my coughing had subsided considerably.
I absolutely fell in love with forgiving! This was the key I had been searching for for over 20 years!
The magical results began unfolding daily. So in February I bought my mic and podcast setup so I could record my Essence riffs, to share how Essence forgiveness was dissolving all of my beliefs, blueprints and programming.
I was astonished that after only a month of daily practice, I couldn’t identify with a lot of the versions of myself that would have reacted to life many scenarios.
It was also in February when Essence taught me about positionalities.
He said, “Lars, positionalities are the root of all suffering.” He also taught me that my stories were very important to play out and not interrupt. He explained that I needed to let them play out in my mind, and then forgive the positionalities that came up.
What a thing!
After decades of trying to distract myself from my mind stories, I was now embracing them!
I have since come to a deep awareness why stories are our greatest teachers.
Essence has shown me thousands of times now that stories are the path to the deepest and most profound, transformative forgivenesses.
All of my spiritual paths make total sense now!
Instead of singular paths to ascension, they were all part of gaining a deeper comprehension of living as an immortal in a limited mortal state in a time-space reality.
There suddenly wasn’t any right or wrong, just aspects of experiencing frequency at different levels, and gaining the comprehension and sense abilities to fully be in each state here in this gorgeous realm.
Every story we tell, in fact every thought we have, has a vibratory and frequency signature. It is when we don’t feel good, we desire to get out of this as quickly as possible. Or at least I did.
Now I embrace that moment, following the story to it’s conclusion in my mind, and then doing the Essence forgiveness of the positionalities that show up.
I have slowly but surely begun to develop the sense abilities for the frequency ranges of life’s experiences, and the resulting emotions and states of being I find myself in.
As soon as the forgiveness is completed, I feel a buoyancy fill my whole body and mind.
It’s as if my consciousness is getting in a hot air balloon and naturally, effortlessly, floating up into the higher planes of frequency where unconditional love and grace can be experienced.
This dissolving of the positionalities and raising effortlessly into a higher frequency state is the experience of transcendence.
It is from this vantage point, that all of life’s dynamics are fully comprehended from the points of awareness of your Essence.
So to go back to the statement, “where attention goes, energy flows”.
In this new transcended state, you will experience the glorious sensation of having alternative paths, actions, and even thoughts that guide you into new and beautiful outcomes in life.
This is the transcendence path.
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Mind Stories are a Tool for Transcendence