This forgiveness prayer is a return to your Essence, an effortless dissolving of the positionalities arising in the unfolding stories of your life, allowing you to instantly experience who you truly are—Unconditional Love and Grace, Essence.
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Essence has revealed to me thousands of times now…
“Lars, your life is lived in proportion to the quality, quantity, and level of your points of awareness.”
And the more I observe this… the more obvious it becomes.
Everything I see… feel… interpret… judge… is happening through a filter. A lens. A very specific cluster of points of awareness that I’ve either developed through direct experience—or absorbed from somewhere else, usually without even realizing it.
And the way I respond to life—how I react in relationships, how I interpret emotions, how I hold meaning—is shaped entirely by those points of awareness.
For most of my life, I didn’t know what those points of awareness even were.
I just lived from them.
I didn’t question them.
I didn’t examine them.
I just kept seeing life through them.
And for a long time, I used words like “unconscious” or “subconscious” to try to explain why certain patterns kept repeating… why certain emotions kept showing up… why some things just wouldn’t shift no matter how much effort I applied.
But Essence showed me something I hadn’t seen before.
Those words—unconscious, subconscious—they’re just placeholders. Mental constructs.
They’re attempts to describe what lies just beyond my current points of awareness.
There is no unconscious.
There is only this: “Beyond what I’m currently able to perceive.”
That’s it.
It’s not hidden. It’s not blocked. It’s not even suppressed.
It’s just not yet visible to the parts of me that are still defined by old interpretations.
And what makes it visible isn’t more effort.
It’s not through analysis.
It’s not through trying to work harder or “go deeper.”
It’s through forgiveness.
Because when I forgive—not the situation, not the other person—but the positionality I’ve been holding… I erase the interference pattern that’s been sitting between me and expanded awareness.
It’s like lifting a shade from a window I didn’t even know was there.
But the shade isn’t made of one single thing.
It’s built out of definitions.
All the tiny, energetic fragments that have shaped the way I judge… the way I compare… the way I’ve held onto pride… the way I’ve reacted in anger… contracted in fear…
The definitions that shaped my resentment.
My remorse.
My regret.
My guilt.
My shame.
Those are the pieces of the shade. That’s what was clouding my view—filtering every moment through an old lens.
And even when the shade lifted, there were times I could feel that I still wasn’t seeing clearly.
The light was coming in. But I was still interpreting that light through the distortions of old positionalities—through their definitions, their experiences, their miss-perceptions.
So I kept forgiving.
Not because something was wrong.
But because even in moments of Grace, even when something beautiful was being revealed to me… my ability to fully receive it was clouded by the residue of what I hadn’t yet let go of.
That’s when I began to comprehend:
Forgiveness doesn’t just lift the shade.
It clears the lens itself.
And when the lens clears, what opens is not just vision… it’s capacity.
I start to feel more—not more emotion, but more spaciousness.
I begin to sense the room between the definitions.
And I see, maybe for the first time, not just what’s in front of me—but what’s always been just beyond the edge of my perception.
The Lenses I Didn’t Know I Was Wearing
What I’ve come to realize is that most of what I thought was “just life” was actually life seen through a filter.
A filter shaped by definitions I didn’t know I had.
Definitions about who I thought I was.
Definitions about what I thought I needed.
What I believed others should give me.
What was right, what was wrong.
What deserved a reaction.
What needed to be fixed.
And those definitions weren’t neutral.
Each one carried a charge.
A subtle voltage that shaped how I felt in my body, how I perceived others, how I moved through the world—even how I thought I should be healing or evolving.
And those charges—those frequencies—were emotional.
Pride.
Comparison.
Judgment.
Anger.
Fear.
Regret.
Remorse.
Resentment.
Guilt.
Shame.
Each one of those emotions didn’t just come out of nowhere.
They were built on layers of interpretation—definitions I had absorbed, agreed to, and kept running in the background without ever questioning them.
And because I didn’t question them, they stayed active.
They became part of the lens.
So when something beautiful entered my field… or when Grace tried to reveal something subtle… I didn’t always receive it in clarity.
Sometimes I couldn’t feel the depth of what was being offered.
Sometimes I misread it.
Other times, I projected something onto it that wasn’t there.
Because the lens—the definition—was still there, quietly shaping the experience.
That’s why forgiveness became everything.
Forgiveness doesn’t just change how I feel.
It shifts how I see.
It clears the structure of perception itself—the scaffolding of judgment, comparison, fear, and pride—so what’s underneath can finally emerge.
And what emerges… is simplicity.
A stillness.
A space in which I no longer need to define what I’m experiencing in order to feel safe.
And that’s where something new begins to unfold. Not through effort. Not through understanding. But through an inner spaciousness I couldn’t find any other way.
When Definition Lifts, Something Else Emerges
As I started to forgive more deeply—not just memories or people, but the positionalities I had been living through—something began to shift that I couldn’t explain at first.
The pressure I didn’t even know I was carrying… started to release.
Not all at once.
But layer by layer, the grip began to soften.
I started to sense a stillness behind things.
A clarity that didn’t come with more answers—just fewer distortions.
There were moments where I wasn’t trying to figure things out anymore.
I wasn’t reacting.
I wasn’t even analyzing the meaning of the moment.
I was just there.
Present.
Not as a concept.
But as a sensation.
A quality of being that didn’t require interpretation.
That didn’t need validation.
That wasn’t striving to be anything.
And it felt like something had stepped in.
Something more intelligent than the mind.
More spacious than the emotions.
More complete than any conclusion I could draw.
And what I came to fully comprehend was that I was experiencing Grace.
Not the poetic kind.
Not the religious idea of it.
But a frequency.
A living, breathing presence that could only be felt when I wasn’t trying to control or categorize what I was feeling.
It came when I stopped defining.
When I stopped trying to shape reality through the filters of the past.
It came when I said, I am nothing. I am nobody.
And I meant it.
And in that moment, I wasn’t less than.
I wasn’t lost.
I was more available.
Available to what was already here.
What had been here all along.
But had been veiled by everything I thought I needed to hold onto in order to survive or be seen.
Grace doesn’t demand.
It doesn’t judge.
It doesn’t push.
It simply waits.
And the moment I forgave the positionality… the moment I surrendered the definition… the moment I released the interpretation…
Grace came in like light through a window I didn’t know could open.
Not to fix me.
Not to teach me.
But to reveal what was already possible when I stopped trying to earn it.
And that’s when Essence whispered something I now live by:
“Lars, when you gain a new awareness, it’s not about understanding. It’s an expansion into new frequencies… that are felt as a comprehension.”
That’s what began to happen.
I wasn’t just seeing more.
I was becoming more resonant with what had always been there.
And from that moment on, forgiveness wasn’t a practice of letting go.
It became a practice of making space—for Grace to move freely, without obstruction.
That’s when everything began to shift.
I Forgive the Positionalities That Care
There was a moment—almost two years ago now—when something inside me shifted so deeply, it dismantled a core part of how I was perceiving life.
It was around caring.
Not the lack of it. Not the need for more of it.
But the caring itself.
I had never questioned caring before.
It was something I had always assumed was good.
Necessary. Compassionate. Responsible. Even loving.
But then Essence revealed something that stopped me in my tracks.
“Lars, caring is a filter. A powerful one.
And until you forgive the positionalities that are doing the caring…
you won’t be able to perceive the frequencies clearly.”
And I felt it.
In my body.
In my field.
In the way I had been distorting everything through this well-meaning, deeply embedded program called caring.
Because here’s what caring had done in my system:
It created a bias.
A distortion.
A persistent pull toward protection, preservation, fixing, rescuing, managing outcomes, avoiding discomfort, and keeping certain frequencies “safe.”
Caring had attached me to outcomes.
It made me more invested in what I thought was right… or what I thought others should experience… than in what was actually true in the moment.
Caring had subtly shaped how I interpreted energy.
It bent my attention toward controlling what I couldn’t control.
It pulled me into definitions that felt noble—but were deeply tethered to fear.
Fear of loss.
Fear of harm.
Fear of being wrong.
Fear of being seen as cold or detached.
And when I traced it even deeper, I saw how caring had formed entire positionalities—identities that existed purely to care, to carry, to hold space, to absorb… even to suffer on behalf of others.
But Essence revealed something even deeper:
“Lars, caring is not the same as compassion.
Caring is about control.
Compassion is about presence.
One distorts frequency.
The other reveals it.”
So I began to speak the command:
“I forgive the positionalities that care or are having any type of emotion being evoked from some definition that was shaped by the judgments, comparison, pride, anger, fear and more in all of life’s unfolding stories, which are all being written mostly from beyond awareness by positionalities of the past.”
And as I spoke this—over and over, through different memories, different patterns—something began to lift.
The static.
The distortion.
The low-level anxiety.
The energetic responsibility I had taken on for things that were never mine to carry.
And what I began to experience… was not neutrality.
Not in the way the world defines it.
But something deeper.
Something real.
True neutrality is a zero state, beyond all name and form, in the nothing-nobody, and expanding into the frequency, power, and points of awareness of my Essence and Soul.
And Essence revealed:
“Neutrality itself doesn’t actually exist, Lars. It’s simply a beingness within the expansion of your points of awareness.”
And I felt it.
Not disconnection.
Not apathy.
But a space in which all definitions began to dissolve.
And presence was no longer a practice. It just was.
And from that space… I could finally feel without interpreting.
I could see without filtering.
I could be in the moment without bending it into something I needed it to be.
That’s what caring had covered up.
That’s what caring had distorted.
And that’s why now, when I feel caring arise, I know it’s a signal.
A signal to return.
A signal to forgive.
“I forgive the positionalities that care.”
Because they are not wrong.
They’re just still living from the past.
And I choose to live from what’s here now—in the frequencies of Essence.
When the Lens Falls Away, the Field Rewrites Itself
As I continued forgiving the positionalities that were shaping how I saw, felt, reacted, and interpreted…
Something began to emerge.
A new kind of awareness.
A frequency I hadn’t accessed before.
Not because it wasn’t there.
But because I couldn’t see it through the old definitions.
It didn’t come with fireworks.
It didn’t come as a sudden download.
It came through stillness. Through space. Through absence.
And in that space, something began to reveal itself that I never expected:
The records of the past weren’t just neutralized…
They had been rewritten.
But not with information.
Not with new stories.
Not with logic.
They had been rewritten with the frequencies of forgiveness and Grace.
And I could feel it.
Moments that used to carry charge… now felt clear.
Memories that once felt heavy… now felt distant, but not disconnected.
They felt… transcended.
And that’s when Essence showed me something that shifted everything:
“Lars, your judgments… your comparisons… your pride… your anger… your fear…
Your resentment, your remorse, your regret, your guilt, your shame…
All of it is shaped by your definitions of the positionalities experiencing the unfolding stories of your life.”
And that hit me so deeply.
Because what I thought was “emotional processing”…
Was actually just reaction loops tied to old definitions I hadn’t yet questioned.
Each emotion I had labeled as truth…
Was just the result of a positionality interpreting the moment through a lens it didn’t even know it was wearing.
So when I began to speak the command:
“I forgive the positionalities that are having any type of emotion being evoked from some definition that was shaped by judgments, comparison, pride, anger, fear and more in all of life’s unfolding stories, which are all being written mostly from beyond awareness by positionalities of the past.”
Something in the field changed.
What I had been calling “me” wasn’t me.
It was a recording.
A reflex.
A loop.
And the moment I forgave the positionality experiencing that loop…
It was like erasing the entire code—not just the memory, but the emotional imprint that had kept it alive.
The field became quieter.
Cleaner.
More precise.
Not in a sterile way—but in a way that let Essence actually be heard.
Because once I forgave the positionality…
The judgment dissolved.
The comparison relaxed.
The pride softened.
The anger left my body.
The fear had nowhere to land.
The regret stopped echoing.
And the shame simply stopped mattering.
I had been seeing through their lenses—through their frequencies.
But once they were gone… I could finally see.
And what I saw was not just new awareness.
It was a completely different field of perception.
A new clarity.
A new rhythm.
A new way of relating to the moment—not from interpretation, but from presence.
That’s when I knew: the field had been rewritten.
Not by effort.
Not by insight.
But by Grace in action through forgiveness.
I Forgive the Positionalities That Judge, Compare, and Carry Pride
There’s something I began to notice in the forgiveness process that caught me off guard.
I would forgive a positionality—release the story, erase the emotional charge, feel the shift…
But then something subtle would start to creep in.
A kind of commentary.
A voice saying, “Look how far you’ve come.”
Or, “You should have known better back then.”
Or even, “Others still don’t get this.”
And that’s when I realized something was still holding on.
Judgment.
Comparison.
Pride.
They weren’t loud anymore.
But they were still shaping the experience.
Not from the surface—but from beneath the forgiveness itself.
And I saw how deeply they had been wired into my awareness.
Judgment had convinced me that certain feelings were better than others.
That certain outcomes meant I was “on track,” while others meant I had “fallen off.”
Judgment lived in the moment I labeled discomfort as failure… or resistance as a sign that something was wrong.
Comparison had lived in the spaces where I measured where I was, based on where I thought someone else was.
Or where I thought I should be by now.
It wasn’t competitive—but it was constant.
A background frequency that bent every experience into a scale.
And pride…
Pride lived in the polarity of those two.
It came in both when I felt elevated—and when I felt small.
Because both are forms of positionality.
Both are anchored in identity.
And both keep awareness bound to a very narrow field of perception.
But what became even more profound was what Essence began to show me after those positionalities were forgiven.
Essence would take a moment—something I believed had a consequence attached to it—and show me a new story.
A kind of mind-movie.
A vivid, felt experience that revealed what that same moment would now unfold like, within the context of my new points of awareness.
Same memory.
Same event.
But a completely different frequency.
A different outcome.
A different reality.
And that’s when I began to understand that the idea of “consequence” wasn’t fixed.
It was contextual.
It was shaped by the definitions held by the positionalities that experienced it—and the positionalities that remembered it.
So I began to forgive not just the postitionalities that experienced past events…
But also the positionalities in the stories Essence was revealing to me that would experience consequences I had assumed were inevitable.
I then spoke the forgiveness command (after surrendering to God, going to nothing-nobody, and expanding into Essence frequency, power and points of awareness, and asking to be able to handle these)
“I forgive the positionalities that are having any type of emotion being evoked from some definition that was shaped by the judgments, comparison, and pride in all of life’s unfolding stories, which are all being written mostly from beyond awareness by positionalities of the past.”
And as I did, Essence revealed something that brought the entire landscape into focus:
“Lars, it is no longer necessary nor possible to experience the consequence of the past when you forgive both the positionalities that experienced them and those that remember them within the context of a story in the mind.
In other words, Lars… karma, the record of the frequencies of your past, is being rewritten.”
That single insight shifted everything.
Because the moment I saw that consequence itself was a result of unexamined definitions…
I knew I could forgive the outcomes.
The patterns.
The effects I thought were following me.
And when I forgave them—truly, from the nothing-nobody, from the expanded field of Essence—it was as if the gravitational pull of the past just released.
The echo stopped.
And what remained was presence.
Not free from the memory of the event itself,
but free from the lenses that shaped how it is was perceived,
rewritten by the frequencies of the Grace of Forgiveness,
and from within the new expanded points of awareness of my Essence and Soul.
And as that integration landed, Essence spoke again:
“Understanding is of the positionality.
Comprehension is of Essence.”
And in that moment… I didn’t understand.
I comprehended.
I Forgive the Positionalities That React with Anger and Contract with Fear
The next layers that emerged after forgiving the positionalities of judgement, comparison and pride… were anger and fear.
There’s something that took me a while to see—because it hid beneath the surface of everything I thought was “just emotion.”
It was how deeply anger and fear had been shaping my awareness.
Not just as reactions…
But as constructors of the lenses through which I was seeing life.
And when I looked closer, it became clear:
Anger wasn’t about the moment.
It was about a definition I was still holding…
About how things should be.
About how I believed people should act, energy should move, outcomes should unfold.
And when that definition wasn’t met—when reality didn’t match the story—I would feel the charge.
But the charge wasn’t the problem.
The positionality behind the charge was.
Essence showed me that anger is never just about frustration.
It’s the activation of a memory.
A belief.
A definition formed by a positionality that has already decided what’s “right.”
And when that definition gets challenged, anger tries to enforce it.
To protect it.
To preserve the illusion of control.
I began to see how often anger was just an echo of my need to be right.
To hold moral high ground.
To not feel helpless.
To not feel small.
And then came fear.
Fear… had worn so many disguises.
It showed up as caution.
As planning.
As being “realistic.”
As being prepared.
But when I slowed down… when I let myself really feel what was under those patterns…
I saw the same architecture.
Fear wasn’t keeping me safe.
It was keeping me tethered to a lens.
A very specific frequency held by a very specific positionality.
And that’s when Essence revealed something that changed everything:
“Fear is evoked from the miss-perceived definitions of the positionality experiencing the unfolding story and its lenses of the externally referenced reality.”
And so I spoke the command—only after surrendering fully to God, stepping into the nothing-nobody, expanding into the frequency, power, and points of awareness of my Essence and Soul, and asking to be able to handle what was being revealed:
“I forgive the positionalities that are having any type of emotion being evoked from some definition that was shaped by judgments, comparison, pride, anger, fear and more in all of life’s unfolding stories, which are all being written mostly from beyond awareness by positionalities of the past.”
And then, after the forgiveness, came the completion.
“When one forgives the positionalities experiencing fear, all of the frequencies that made up the definitions of the lenses of the externally referenced reality are transcended into that of Grace.
In other words Lars, your expanded points of awareness show you that there was nothing to fear in the first place.
And that fear itself was simply a defined state of being you no longer are.”
And in that moment, I knew—
I had deleted the identity that held the definitions that created the fear through forgiveness.
I Forgive the Positionalities That Carry Regret, Remorse, Resentment, Guilt, and Shame
These are the frequencies that tend to live beneath everything else.
They don’t always shout like anger.
They don’t flare like fear.
But they’re there… woven deep into the scaffolding of awareness.
And for most of my life, I didn’t even realize how much of my perception was being shaped by them.
Because regret doesn’t just live in the past.
It lives in the body—
In the nervous system—
In the hesitation to fully show up in the moment because something inside still whispers,
“You should have done it differently.”
Remorse is its cousin.
A subtler version of suffering that plays back moments on repeat…
not to inform, but to punish.
Resentment builds slowly.
It collects.
Layer after layer of internalized frustration toward others… or life… or systems… or even God.
And then there’s guilt and shame.
The frequencies that sit at the bottom of the field…
not because they’re less important,
but because they hold the rest.
Guilt says,
“You did something wrong.”
Shame says,
“You are something wrong.”
And those voices… those definitions…
are never spoken by Essence.
They are spoken by the positionalities that were formed in trauma, fear, separation, confusion, and disconnection.
So I began to notice how much these five had shaped my awareness of myself.
Not just emotionally… but energetically.
They had shaped the choices I allowed myself to make.
The opportunities I believed I was worthy of.
The relationships I thought I had to accept.
They were like invisible threads, always pulling on the lens I was seeing through—
distorting the moment into something I needed to explain or atone for.
But then Essence stepped in again.
“Lars, these are not emotions.
They are definitions.
They are positionalities remembering pain through the filters of old perception.”
And so I surrendered.
I went to the nothing-nobody.
I asked to be shown what I was still holding.
I asked to be able to handle what would be revealed.
And I expanded into the frequency, power, and points of awareness of my Essence and Soul.
And then I spoke the command:
“I forgive the positionalities that are having any type of emotion being evoked from some definition that was shaped by judgments, comparison, pride, anger, fear, regret, remorse, resentment, guilt, shame and more in all of life’s unfolding stories, which are all being written mostly from beyond awareness by positionalities of the past.”
And one by one, they began to dissolve.
Not because I felt worthy.
But because I stopped believing they were real.
They were never Essence.
They were the echo of positionalities trying to protect me…
from pain that had already passed.
And as those echoes faded, I began to sense something else.
A new spaciousness.
A lightness in the field that wasn’t from joy, or success, or breakthrough.
It was the absence of weight.
It was the knowing that I no longer needed to define myself by a feeling that never belonged to who I actually am.
I wasn’t becoming someone new.
I was deleting the frequencies of a positionality I no longer needed to carry.
Karma Is Only a Record of Frequencies That Have Not Yet Been Forgiven
A few nights ago, I woke up in the middle of the night and came down to have a sip of water. As I was standing there, Soul came through with a clarity was so delicious.
A new framework began to emerge.
Not as understanding…
But as comprehension.
I had been forgiving for months—layer by layer, story by story.
I had watched positionalities collapse, definitions dissolve, and outcomes I once believed were inevitable simply… fade.
And that’s when Soul spoke.
“Lars, every thought, action, word, memory, point of awareness, or outcome in your life has been experienced as a positionality—a tiny fragment of who you actually are as Essence.”
When you move from moment to moment, you are experiencing frequency that is filtered through your definitions. You judge and compare everything from these, and therefore feel the experiences are outcomes of Karma.
This is a miss-direct, Lars. A miss-perception. A miss-interpretation. A miss-understanding. And therefore, a miss-communication.
You are simply observing your externally referenced reality and your experiences within it, and then making the assumption that—whether good or bad—your unfolding stories are a result of Karma.
You are also making the assumption that whatever you eat and consume—through all your senses—is going to create or absorb some form of Karma. This as well is a miss-direct. But it holds a small amount of truth… only up to the capacity of the positionality experiencing that moment.
“So for instance, when you eat meat, it is thought that you absorb the Karma of the animal. There is a small amount of truth to this, from the perspective of absorbing the frequencies of that animal, including all of its experiences.
But when you hold this type of belief, you apply your own judgments, comparisons, and lenses—shaped by thousands of positionalities that formed those definitions.
When you surrender to your Soul and Essence, go to Nothing and Nobody, you step into a realm of frequency where Grace exists. This level of frequency instantly transcends all of the frequencies of whatever you are eating—up to the level of Grace.
It’s like bringing a candle into a dark room. The light from the candle instantly transcends the space between you and the boundaries of the room and all the objects within it.
If one were to think that walking into a dark room meant absorbing its darkness—just like the analogy of eating meat—you can see why this is a miss-direct.”
And then came the words that reframed everything:
“Karma, Lars, is a record of frequency.
When you forgive the positionalities in your life, you are deleting the frequencies of all of their points of awareness, memories, beliefs, blueprints, and programming… and your entire being is uplifted into a new frequency, free of these definitions of the past and their frequencies, free as you were, of their Karma.
The experience—and all awareness of it—becomes instantly transcended.
Karma is therefore pliable… because it is just a record.
And records can be rewritten, just as the story of your life.”
What a thing!
And what I now live by is not a belief.
But a knowing.
There is no Karma in the form I had been led to believe through my miss-perceptions of positionalities of the past.
There is only the echo of frequencies of positionalities that have yet to be forgiven.
And when I forgive—truly, from the nothing-nobody, from the vast field of Essence—
Those frequencies are no longer part of my perceptual reality, nor in my being.
They are not balanced.
They are not worked through.
They are not carried forward.
They are erased.
And what remains is Grace.
And this is my wish for you.
Forgiveness With Soul Meditation
Over the last 9 months here in my tiny home, living in solitary, I was brought through all of the layers that I have described in this podcast and article, over and over and over… thousands of times now. Each layer revealed beyond the distortion of the filter of a positionality, what was revealed on the other side of all my definitions was spectacular. The true miracle occurs in surrender prior to beginning the forgiveness.
In this audio, I take you through the surrender to Soul, which may seem a dramatic shift away from surrendering to God, has been a spectacular experience. What I have experienced is that it is the last positionality that surrenders it’s definitions and identity to my Soul that allows for an ancient wisdom to be fully embodied and activated in this forgiveness process. Soul directly interfaces with this realm, and has been guiding every moment of your life. Soul can reveal direct information beyond your positionalities that can only be revealed beyond the miracle of Grace in action, which is forgiveness in the beyond nothing-nobody state of expansion into Soul and Essence. This is a vastly different frequency range than trying to forgive from the limited defined perspective of the positionality.
This audio is also available on Soundcloud here.
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