Life is full of a huge range of experiences that trigger us.
But why do we get triggered in the first place? And what if we were to transcend our view of triggers to experience completely new kinds of outcomes in life?
Essence reminds me often, “Lars the root of all suffering is positionalities.”
When we look at the world around us, this statement rings true in all the ways in which humanity has been divided up into so many identities… national, local, political, sports, ideologies, religion, self identities, and many thousands more. These are played out in social media and life’s unfolding stories in sometimes dramatic ways.
As life unfolds, many of the beliefs and ways of being we used to hold as true for us, dissolve into the mists of time.
However, what happens with all that programming that got stored into our vessel and energy fields? How does this ‘forgotten’ programming affect our perceptual capacity in our current unfolding stories?
How on earth do we delete this old and sometimes annoying programming?
In every second, we take in millions of bits of data, while only having the capacity to process a tiny amount of that information. We form assumptive biases that guide our life in a relentless path that forms and shapes our life experiences.
In all of this, we create our own construct of what is good and bad, black and white, and every possible form of guideposts for living a virtuous, productive and happy life.
Or at least I did.
One of the forgivenesses I say often is, “Jeshua and Essence, I forgive any and all positionalities that are living out the stories from positionalities of the past.”
This has been a profound way of getting unstuck, and being liberated from blueprints that inexorably moved me to think, feel and act mostly beyond my awareness. Especially in those visceral moments of reaction.
We think we’re in control of life. We think we’re the masters of our destiny.
Or at least I did.
As I’ve been dissolving one positionality at a time, I have come to realize that it was the programming of positionalities that was the master of my life, not me. Of course, I have heard that my unconscious programming was what ruled my life, yet there was something else I was missing. I was searching for that secret delete button! I knew it was my programming that was shaping my destiny, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t delete it! I became extremely good at shifting my focus to shift the outcomes of life… but never ever have I experienced the permanent deletion of the code itself.
I have always strived to make wise choices and decisions, but it felt like there was a force moving me through life’s unfolding stories as if the script was already written.
Believe me, I practiced being the script writer, director and architect of my life.
However, I hadn’t found that darn delete button!
Have you ever felt that way?
Like you’re stuck in a rut, and no matter how many cleanses, supplements, meditations, and retreats you go to, somehow you end up being triggered by people, places, times and events… just as you did 20 years ago?
When I experienced the very first deletions of my positionalities through forgiveness, I felt like I had been set free for the very first time in my life! I literally couldn’t remember a former way of being, it was as if those stories of my past were chapters in a book that were of some completely different version of me.
A new way of being has emerged.
My self definition has been virtually erased.
Last year Essence said, “Lars don’t name or define what you don’t know or have full comprehension of. By naming any experience or perception of yourself and others, you limit your points of awareness to a very small definition Lars. You are blinded to the frequency ranges that would give you a new way of looking at things. Your life’s unfolding stories have, through your incessant need to name and define everything, been limited by the programming and points of awareness of the positionalities experiencing each moment.”
Indeed! Now I get it!
I never had a full knowing or comprehension of who I am as pure frequency.
Until now.
Knowing comes through experience.
Comprehension is a state of consciousness that encompasses the expanded frequency awareness of all the dynamics in a given moment.
Both are enjoyed on the other side of forgiveness.
Everything is frequency, that’s all.
Our perceptual capacity of our frequency experience is dialled way down. So much so that we’re only capable of handling a very tiny amount of information — frequency awareness — in any given moment.
Essence reminds me of this often, as he says, “Lars remember the 30’x9’ foot wall covered in the highest density pixel image. That’s my view. Your view Lars is only a pixel. You’re therefore miss-perceiving everything, miss-interpreting everything, and miss-understanding everything. When you dissolve all naming and defining by going to nothing-nobody, you are dissolving the pixel view and experience of life. In this state, you will gain a new expanded comprehension of life’s unfolding stories, because you gain an awareness of an expanded range of frequencies being experienced.”
This is why, for the last four months, Essence has been reminding me daily to forgive all of the positionalities that name or define every experience in life. This has been a glorious experience! Countless times now, when I remember to forgive right in the moment within an experience, I see a whole new spectrum of possibilities emerge that were hidden from me.
This is particularly true when it comes to being triggered.
I have always thought of triggers as being negative. When I used to think, “Wow did I ever get triggered!”, it usually meant, at least for me, that I got angry, sad, frustrated, judgemental, etc. There was a visceral instantaneous experience of a lower vibrational and frequency emotion and state of being. And my goodness have these ever been frustratingly hard to get rid of!
Gaining ‘control’ over these triggers has been a quest of mine for the last 20 years! I have done hundreds of hours of tapping, thousands of hours of meditation, and explored all sorts of modalities, practices and even several thousand hours in mega dose psillocybin journeys to find out what the heck was going on in my beyond awareness that could trigger negative emotions.
However, with the forgiveness of all naming and defining, even of my own name, identity and physical form in this time and space, I have experienced a completely new awareness and comprehension of triggers.
A few days ago Essence was unpacking the stories that were unfolding for me when he said, “Lars triggers are constantly being experienced in a full range of frequency experience. You are in fact Lars, being triggered in every single moment when you are living out the story of a positionality.
You have named triggers as undesirable, as you have believed them to have a negative connotation. However Lars, when you are living out the story of a positionality, you are running all of it’s programs, whether categorized as good or bad.
This is why Lars I have been reminding you to forgive all of your positionalities that are experiencing the full range of life’s emotions… from shame, guilt, anger, judgement, fear, pride … all the way up to happiness and all you consider desirable. This is why you have experienced, many times now, a sensation of joy and exhilaration after the forgiveness of a positionality experiencing a beautiful moment.
Happiness is of the positionality, and Joy is of Essence.
You dissolved the deep programming and triggers that evoked a sensory awareness experience of the frequency ranges of that beautiful moment. On the other side you had an expansion of frequency awareness you couldn’t have imagined from within the points of awareness of that positionality.”
What a thing!
What a mind trap I was in!
To think that I was, perhaps like you, chasing all those good feeling states, and working sometimes to the point of utter exhaustion on dissolving and getting out of the bad feeling states.
And all the while… deepening the blueprints, beliefs, programming, needs, expectations, desires and addictions of all my naming of good and bad, desirable and undesirable, etc.
When we envision a future from within the positionalities of the past, we are doomed to limit the total expression of truly magical outcomes!
Magic is beyond all belief. Once you know the magic trick, it’s no longer magical.
Essence has reminded me thousands and thousands of times now, that in order to experience magic in all of life’s unfolding stories, go to nothing-nobody, and forgive the positionalities experiencing them. And each and every time, I have enjoyed a magical outcome.
All of the beliefs get dissolved, and a glorious range of new perceptual capacity opens up, where I have experienced frequency ranges that have been incredibly magical!
May you as well, experience what it’s like to experience life beyond all of your beliefs, so that magic can unfold continuously for you. And in this new story, all of your triggers, both good and bad, will also have been erased.
The next time you have an instant reaction of sadness, depression, anger, fear… or the opposite states… remember to forgive the positionalities experiencing these… and forgive the positionalities that had the programming that created these instant reactions in the first place.
This will open up your points of awareness to gain a broader and more delicious experience of life, where you will react less, and respond in new transcended ways.
Life is, in it’s purest expression, a frequency experience of transcendence.
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